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Thursday, March 6th, 2014
10:18 pm
Illusions March 6, 2014

Our relationship is an illusion you're trying not to shatter.

Do you think we can continue the charade we started?

When you look at me, your eyes tell me you would never lie to me.

But your smile tells me you would.

And I can feel that feeling in the pit of my stomach.

The truth you speak is real but a mainpulation of the words.

Sadly, but truthfully, a connection even like ours can be broken.

With every realization that comes to my attention.

How far can love carry a person, a couple, before the obstacles become too large?

How soon until the illusion created burts and the charade is no longer necessary?

Wednesday, July 11th, 2012
1:05 pm
7/11/2012 Poem

Remember all the times we had
Not there together but always forever
Connected perfectly in every way
Sat with each other every day
Listening carefully to each word you say
Building up these cherished times
Thinking, if only time could rewind
We could reminisce about our past
But honestly how long could that last
The future together used to be so strong
Now with these memories it seems so wrong
Nonetheless it's just as sweet
Hoping that regardless of distance we still could meet
We'll try to forget all the times we had
Not always forever but there together
So in that time we're not sad or mad
Not resentful, jealous, or guilty
Just peaceful, happy, friendly, and all
So in the future this point is where we remember it all

Current Mood: content
Friday, October 28th, 2011
7:39 pm
Writer's Block: R.I.P
What do you want done with your body after you die?
I would like to be dressed in a beautiful dress. My best rosary in my hands. I want to have L.A.M.B sprayed on me lol. I would like to have my winnie the pooh with me. And I want to be buried in a Roman Catholic Sematary.
Tuesday, October 4th, 2011
1:41 pm
Writer's Block: Just stop, already!
  • Loud chewing - especially gum
  • Gross burps without an "excuse me"
  • Loogies left in the sink
  • Greasy items from other people or people who are greasy that touch your things

Tuesday, May 17th, 2011
9:09 pm
It will work out
Be happy with the friends you have.
For the friends you know are real.
Take love seriously.
Don’t let disappointment get the better of you.
Deep in your heart there is hope things will change.
Although it takes time everything will work out.

For you
I told you once how I wanted to work for you.
I wanted to give you that one moment you would never forget.
I still can.
I want nothing more then for you to be happy.
I hate to see sadness in your eyes.
I hate to see distress in your words.
I promised you something special.
What I will do is all for you.
You just have to let me show you.

Where love is
Your heart isn’t for love.
Your heart is for beating.
Love is a psychological problem
Makes your brain tell the heart to beat faster.
Fast when your love walks by.
Fast when you’re in the midst of passion.
Your heart is just a disguise
Your mind hides behind.
To make you believe you’re sane when you’re hurting.
The heart does not break.
Your mind cracks in two.
Your brain manipulates you.
Telling you the heart beats for love.
When it’s not the heart that makes you love and hurt
It’s what’s above, psychological, moving you to love.

By myself
I don’t need you in order to complete me.
I am who I am because of me.
No doubt I did have help to get here.
But I had to push myself to reach the top.
So don’t take credit for what I accomplished.

Current Mood: accomplished
10:29 am
Writer's Block: Merlin revisited
If you were granted unlimited magic powers for just five minutes, what would you do?

i would make the 5 minutes go by slower but we're all moving the same
i would then use mind reading powers to read all the peoples minds that i wanted to
i would teleport to australia and hang out with D and right before my time expires i would teleport back
and the second before i stop having powers i would redevelop/reconstruct my property from the front curb to the back ditch. :D
7:01 am
May 17, 2011 - 94 credits in
Good morning!
I am littlesilver and I am attending ECPI College of Technology for Business Administration with a concentration in Business Management. It has been a nice time. I have new friends. I have learned things. I have joined clubs and societies. Currently, I am taking BIO122 & BIO122L which is Environmental Biology - Ecology. I have read 4 chapters out of 11. I plan to finish by Sunday night. Making notes by then or at least by Monday night. I then have around 10 more classes to attend before reaching 122 credits. This Saturday at 5:00 PM at a Lutheran Church I am being inducted into the two-year college honor society, Phi Theta Kappa. I will be a Phi Theta Kappian lol. I am allowed to bring 3 people. We are highly suggested to bring a covered-dish to the ceremony that can feed 10 people. I am bringing small meatballs. In addition to my current class, we have a project in our lab class for which my team is doing our project on Orca Whales and their feed habits within their natural habitat.
I should go now. It is 7:01 AM and I don't like to be "late." Have a good day Live Journal.

Current Mood: awake
Sunday, March 13th, 2011
9:20 pm
March 13, 2010
Everything will be alright.
Take a breath and sit back.
Trust things will come through.
Let the days be as they must.
Brighten your smile with optimism.
Show that you have what it takes.
Fight against the pain
And fight for what you want.
Look at every day with joy,
And a chance to be better.
You will be alright
Saturday, February 26th, 2011
8:49 am
I really am a size 5 in shoes. I am getting new skechers soon. Can't wait until May.
Super bored.
Tuesday, February 15th, 2011
11:28 am
Happy 11 Months Nicholas
Nicholas is 11 months today. Whose birthday is next 15th? YOURS IS!
Can't wait to see you in April and in May. :)
Saturday, November 27th, 2010
11:23 pm
11:22 PM
I sit in the shadows
Looking for the light that once was
Then I see up above
A glorious vision
One of pure beauty
It shines upon all below
Bringing me up from my own darkness
Pulling me away from this abyss
Into this new emotion
Like a baby from its mother’s womb
I step into this world
Refreshed and anew
I wander from the mist of depression
And emerge towards a new journey
I see hope and joy
Can this be from the darkness?
That this new path grew
Did someone hear my cry for help?
That I leave the shadows behind
To live in this new light
A wonderful discovery
From here on that I live eternal
Growing from inside my soul I know
This glorious place I’ll forever call home
Monday, November 8th, 2010
8:57 pm
Project last term
last term ended on thursday
we had a project
our feedback for the project and the whole class was...
'elaina, you are intelligent, quiet, really quiet... you know what you're doing... *pause* you're ready'
Monday, September 6th, 2010
10:03 pm
One Moment
I want to give you that one moment
That one moment that you will always hold onto
Something that will make you say
"That's when I knew"
I want to give you that one moment
That one moment you look back to in an instant
And remember every second I spent with you
I want to give you that one moment
That one moment that makes you close your eyes and dream
Dream of the day we first met
Taking you in my arms and whispering
"I love you"
I want to give you that one moment
That one moment that even when I have gone
Will make a difference in your heart
Because in that one moment, you knew that we would never part
9:52 pm
did i post this? lol it just popped up here
I try to relax
I try to be optimistic
But I can not relax
My thoughts are killing me
Prayer does not work
Meditation is not calming
The fear is prevailing
Coming over me
Like a dark cloud in a storm
Shadowing over me
Making my days dark
Scared to look into the future
Because ahead I see no light
Nervous and worried
Shaking inside and out
Heart is continuously pounding with fright
I do not think I will win this internal fight
Friday, July 30th, 2010
10:38 pm
number 3 today
My heart and mind are trying to communicate
My heart wants to leap from my chest because my mind cannot gather the words
I wish it were easier to express what I feel
But my love is just too real
It is beyond the average heart to heart bond
Running deep in my veins
You spread through my body
Already taken over, my heart only beats for you
Invaded by you every day, my brain only produces thoughts of you
Although my mind knows what my heart wants
And knowing these feelings are true
I just cannot put down in words exactly how much I love you.

Current Mood: enthralled
Sunday, July 18th, 2010
11:04 pm
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
By my side
Right when I need you most
I wish you were here
To hold me when I'm sad
So it won't hurt as bad
I wish you were here
When I cry
To wipe my tears away
I wish you were here
Protecting me from harm
Wrapping me in your arms
I wish you were here
To kiss my cheek
And to let me know everything will be okay
I wish you were here...
You're so far away
So I'll wait for that special day when I see you
But I just want to say that I miss you
Tuesday, July 13th, 2010
7:43 pm
Second one today
This empty page
Like my soul
I fill it with your words
Broken Promises
Your disguises
I write my life away
So that one day
I am free of you

As the empty page fills
Like my soul
I feel the blackness
My sorrow
I write my life away
So that one day
I am free of this

This empty page, filled
Like my soul
I cannot put more in
Our memories
I write my life away
So that one day
I am free... that is all... I will be free
7:02 pm
I cannot write it out
You do not hurt me
It is a strange feeling
My heart is still beating
How unusual
I have become accustomed to pain
So when my emotions are not seeping with sadness
I feel an empty feeling
Yet somewhat fulfilled
My body does not ache when I am with you
It is an amazing feeling to feel like your heart is brand new
Friday, March 12th, 2010
8:06 pm
Alrighty then,
School has been going well so far. I am now a sophmore in college. 2010-2011 :D In another five months I should be a junior. Then finally a senior... but I'm not sure lol.
Estelle is graduating college. Her last day of school was this thursday. All she had to do was turn in her final exam.
Heather has a car and she got her license about a month ago... she goes to court soon but I don't know what date. She and I have hung out a lot more since she's gotten her car. It's been really cool. She's a good driver. I feel safe... she doesn't scare me at all when she drives.
I am still learning how to drive. I need to work on my turns. I need to break when I turn but for some reason I get a brain fart when it comes to that and just lay off the gas and not put on the break. I'm good at everything else though.
Emily is going to be only 4 months away this coming tuesday. YAY! Can't wait to see my new nephew Nicholas. (new, like you can buy them some where)
Okay that's all that I have to say :D

Current Mood: calm
Monday, February 8th, 2010
3:43 pm
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